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.: 3.31.2006
It's weird how easily you can fall for someone for how you thought they were or how they used to be, and then stay that way for a ridiculous amount of time even after they reveal that they're not who you thought they were or who you wanted them to be.
To quote our Once Act UIL judge today, you love them so deeply but wish they were different.
Nothing like wasting your life waiting for them.
.: 3.27.2006
[ roflskates]
.: 3.25.2006
I just realized that I'm 69 inches tall.
teehee!
.: 3.24.2006
woo
shattered dreams
went well
haven't slept in so long
sleep now
.: 3.21.2006
[ monthly government rant]
FBI official says budget doesn't cover email accounts for all agents
From the article:
"We just don't have the money, and that is an endless stream of complaints that come from the field," he said.
From the comments:
"So let me get this straight, $9 billion goes missing in Iraq, the war has cost US taxpayers about $250 billion so far, oil companies have record profit$, our national debt ceiling was raised to $9 trillion and we can't afford to supply email to the FBI?
What is going on? And, does anyone even care?"
.: 3.20.2006
Here's the contents of a spam email I just got:
"was an all-male one and that its members all wore beards. An odd feature of the auditorium was that it had no seats and the entire assembly was sitting on the beautifully polished and extremely slippery floor. Embarrassed at finding himself in this large and unexpected company, after some hesitation Nikanor Ivanovich followed the general example and sat down Turkish-fashion on the parquet, wedging himself between a stout redbeard and a pale and extremely hirsute citizen. None of the audience paid any attention to the newcomer. There came the gentle sound of a bell, the house-lights went out, the curtains parted and revealed a lighted stage set with an armchair, a small table on which was a little golden bell, and a heavy black velvet backdrop. On to the stage came an actor, dinner-jacketed, clean-shaven, his hair parted in the middle above a young, charming face. The audience grew lively and everybody turned to look at the stage. The actor advanced to the footlights and rubbed his hands. 'Are you sitting down? ' he enquired in a soft baritone and smiled at n ss ospsf snspsfqh ng pkpt pkp rpptopqp lpm sdjksdfsdfsdlgkj sdflkjsdf lksdjfsdfsdf
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.: 3.17.2006
I was thinking today about being alone and being lonely, which aren't the same thing. And I realized that people will put up with almost anything in a person if they don't have anyone better.
Having a someone who bugs the crap out of you is better than having no one at all.
.: 3.15.2006
I just realized that a portion of my shower curtain is held up by duct tape.
Awesome.
.: 3.13.2006
My fortune today said I would be receiving a surprise treat soon, so somebody'd better deliver. Fuckers.
.: 3.12.2006
[ that's what you get for waiting]
<Bao> A friend from college is now getting her PhD in biomedical engineering, and she has a pet rat she has to experiment on, and she had to castrate it for her next procedure.
<Bao> Apparently the thing wasn't fully under anaesthesia, and when she was shaving it, it ejaculated on her.
<Bao> And the most horrible thing is that she shrugs it off and is like, "Who'd have thought the first handjob I'd ever give would be to a rat?!"
bash.org
.: 3.11.2006
.: 3.09.2006
.: 3.07.2006
[ insightful scrubs quote #206]
Nothing worth having in this world comes easy.
.: 3.06.2006
It's two thirty in the morning, I can't get to sleep, and I just got up to use the bathroom and I tripped over a fan in the dark and stubbed the crap out of my goddamn big toe.
It's nights like these (which are unfortunately fairly common) that are the reason I sleep through school so much. Except now, I have six absences in physics, so I kind of need to start showing up. Not that anything really matters at this point... I didn't get into Olin, which is where I think I really wanted to go, and now UT is saying I won't be considered for application unless they have extra space (which they won't) because they received my transcript after the deadline. I don't like Austin, and I have no particular attraction to UT except for its film school, but now that I'm rejected it seems like the easiest and best choice of colleges. So I guess that leaves A&M, which accepted me (sent transcripts to both schools on the same day, by the way. And they both had the same deadline) or OU, which will give me a full ride via scholarships. I think, at this point, I have no reason to go to A&M, and there's nothing really I want to do at OU. I'm still interested in film. They have mass communications and stuff... I guess I can get a BFA in film/art. For free. At least the campus is pretty.
There's always northlake. They have a surprisingly respectable film school, from what I hear. I can always transfer into UT, probably even after first semester. I suppose that's not a bad choice, except it means six more months of living in the hell-hole I call home. If only I had a job, I could afford an appartment..
At this point I think I have no choice but to just sit back and see what happens. Everything always works out in the end, right? I pretty much have two decent-paying jobs lined up for me here if I stayed around and didn't even go to college. But still, it's the anticipation that's killing me. It'll work out somehow... but I just need to know how. And on top of worrying about all the college stuff I also have to deal with school, where I have one real teacher and three permanent substitutes, taking over for the only three teachers I've ever really talked to about anything. And on top of that my best friend who I normally talk to things about is going through her own stuff, and I'm really worried about her.
Oh yeah, I'm also coordinating the entire film crew aspect of shattered dreams at hebron, for some reason. The ENTIRE film crew aspect. Also, I'm having to cover for our theater department because at this point I'm the ONLY one who knows anything about our theater. Now that our tech director (who stopped including me in shows because he was pissed off that I sometimes gave my time to other activities as well) is gone, they're trying to recruit me back into teching because they only have two decent techs for the UIL four man crew, and, like I said, I'm the only one who can do anything.
Long story short (ish), I feel like I'm working my ass off, not getting anything done, and getting no support from anyone. I never have free time and yet there's always so much to do. I'm balancing all this weight on my shoulders, and no one is left to have my back when my spine snaps and I crush under the pressure.
It's going to be a long rest of my life.
P.S. Have a great week!
.: 3.05.2006
18 months well spent.
http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-2231271827736577327
or the same thing on youtube
